Be careful what you say...

“Get it together” “what on earth are you doing” “they didn’t invite you on purpose” “you don’t have what it takes to do that” “ your just a joke” “there must be something wrong with you” “why would anyone listen to me” “for pete sake stop crying” “you're still here at this same point in life” oh, you mean you don’t sometimes talk to yourself like that too. ha  About a year and a half ago I was sitting in a pretty intense session with my counselor, side note… I think everyone should see a counselor every once in a while, when he abruptly interrupted me mid-sentence and said “Rach, you wouldn't ever dare say those things to other people, why on earth would you say them to yourself?” That was probably the first time I ever really thought about what I was saying to myself, the things that I had playing on my inner record player per say. It wasn’t that these things were running through my mind all day, every day, but when something didn’t go as planned, or a relationship didn’t work out, or when I was feeling discouraged about something this was my go to… and I didn’t even realize it...yikes!   I was super great at giving advice to everyone else, encouraging them, believing in them, telling them that they have what it takes, being their cheerleader... But when it came to myself for some reason the roles reversed.

I think it might have something to do with the insanely unattainable standard I held myself to…  it really was just ridiculous… haha So in this season I am learning to turn off that record player of negativity and self-doubt, give myself grace, to embrace and live well in the confident and independent women I am and was created to be, and start talking to myself. The song that is on loop on my inner record player is now and forever a song of, I have what it takes, of I am exactly where I am supposed to be, a song of I am so much stronger than I think, that I am so worth it… that today and even on my worst day that I am loved and liked, planned for, adored, a princess of the king, that I am worth it! What are you playing on that little inner record player of yours… are you listening to it or are you telling it what you want it to say?

Today, take a minute to listen to what you are allowing your inner record player to say to yourself and then STOP listening and START talking to yourself.  Tell yourself to listen up and start telling yourself you are good enough, you are beautiful, you are strong, you are smart enough, you are so loved and liked. YOU are worth it, because you are! And even if you don’t feel like any of those things are true about you… just do it anyways! Because they are, whether you see it or not!