There’s a purpose in that pain…

I know what you are thinking… “Rachael, you have lost your ever loving mind” although, that might be a little true at times lol I can honestly say that if you choose to seek it out you will find the purpose. Life is a funny thing, sometimes it is absolutely over the moon wonderful and other times it completely knocks you off your feet and punches you right in the gut over and over again…  Life isn’t always easy, okay a lot of times it's just downright awful but oh boy, can I tell you that YOU have the ability to to choose to sit in that suffering and let it take control of you or you can stop and ask the question “what can I learn through this that I might not be able to learn any other way?”. Don’t get me wrong, I am in no way saying this is easy  - I have been searching for purpose and the lesson for about a year and half now... questioning almost everything in life. Why am I still dealing with this, why am I going through this, why do I feel like I am on an emotional hamster wheel that is spinning out of freaking control and can’t seem to find a way out. Why do I feel like I literally can’t breathe at times or can’t seem to stop crying… why me, I just don’t get it and I REALLY REALLY don’t like it!

I don’t know what your life looks like right now, I don’t know what pain you are going through or have gone through but can I tell you with the utmost grace, empathy and understanding that there is a purpose in it. I get it, it feels like you will never be the same, you will never be okay again, that “this” will never end… oh, dear friend I promise it will. I am living and breathing proof of that. So instead of asking “why am I going through this” I challenge you to ask “what can I learn through this that I might not be able to learn any other way”. It's not easy, and you can’t do it alone but it will get better, it won't always be this way.

As I was journaling and reading recently I read out of Colossians 1:12-14 which says,  12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light. 13 For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, 14 in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.” I came to the realization of my purpose in this pain, it’s this. That I have not only been rescued out of my mess but that I have been made right and am being redeemed, restored and made new for so much more than I can ever dream. Without the struggles in my life I don’t think that I would be here writing this today, I don’t think I would be learning to give grace, I know I wouldn't be able to share my life with you.  I don’t get it, I still don’t understand it and I still don’t like it but now I see the purpose in it. Oh, I promise it won't always be this way so just keep asking, keep seeking, keeping pressing on because you are stronger than you think!