The uncomfortable road

I like to make things right, I like to make sure everything is fine and everyone is fine. I don’t like not being able to do something to ease the tension or make a situation better or say something that will bring justification to a wrong… okay, unless it comes to the dishes and laundry and then I have no qualms with letting it just sit there undone haha. But you know sometimes I just can’t, sometimes I am just down right stubborn and prideful and think that my way is the right way… I am sure you never have this issue either. Haha. Sometimes there is nothing that can be done or said, sometimes you just have to sit in it and to me that is absolutely infuriating. Why is it that things happen to you in life that you have no control over, that circumstances change without a moment's notice, friendship dynamics change and someone who was once a great friend isn’t really a friend at all anymore? You know, I have no idea and you know I am not really a fan of life happening that way either.

But here is what I do know… I know whose I am and who I am and it's not my job to try and bring justification for all of the wrongs in life. I know that I am choosing to believe the best in people, that I am working to do everything in my power to make things right. Sometimes that means doing nothing at all, it sucks, I know! Sometimes that means having tough conversations, sometimes that means saying goodbye to friendships and relationships that aren't going anywhere or bringing out the best in you. Sometimes it means just being the best version of yourself possible and that probably changes a little in every situation. Because even in the midst of this crazy, insane and just downright infuriating world I am reminded that even when the world seems to be crumbling around me that I am okay and that I will be okay. That not everyone is going to get it, not everyone is going to go after my dreams with me and that is okay. Things change, life happens, friendships go in a different direction but you know, we will be okay. If you feel like you are out there trying to blaze a trail all alone know that you are not the only one… if you remember anything today know that you weren't created to stay on the straight and narrow. So leave the comfortable path, have the tough conversations, sit in the inability to bring justification but know you are not alone my friend… find comfort in the fact that there are others who feel the exact same way.