Why not me?

Have you ever asked yourself why not me?  For the longest time I’ve lived in the mentality of  oh, it always seems to work out for everyone else but probably won’t work out for me...because I am to goody two shoes ish, to confident, not confident enough, not smart enough, not graceful enough, I am too much for people to handle, not funny enough, not skinny enough, not sweet enough, not vulnerable enough… and the list could probably go on and on. I know what you’re thinking… the Rachael I know seems so confident and independent, the Rach I know looks like she has it all together and to be honest I would have probably rather you have seen me that way a few years ago. But now, now is a whole different story. It's sort of like I am learning to be a new Rachael, like trying to break a 30 something year old habit of having it all together all the time which is not exactly easy, let me tell you!

 But you know what the insanely cool thing is about figuring out what this new Rach looks like, is that I get to make the calls now and not just let them happen to me. So why not me, instead of believing all of those lies of it always happens for everyone else, why not change the conversation in my head. Why not start believing that it can and will happen for me. Why not choose to see God working in my circumstances instead of looking at how I am not where I think “I” should be. It's a totally new mindset shift, a perspective change. Why can’t I be the one who ends up writing a bestselling book, why can’t I be the one who is on stage speaking in front of thousands, why can’t I be the one who is helping people be the best version of themselves from the inside out. Instead of thinking that it will never happen maybe start thinking WHY NOT ME!

 Here's what I know… it's not always going to be easy, it's not always going to be comfortable, everyone is not always going to get it… heck, some of it is downright scary but sitting there paralyzed in fear isn’t going to change anything either. I wasn’t created to be small, I wasn't created to have amazing ideas and just keep them all to myself, I wasn’t created to sit paralyzed in fear. Let me tell you my friends, there is freedom on the other side of your fear. Do I have this all figured out, hell no! Am I scared a lot, do I worry about what other people will think sometimes. Oh, for sure. But jumping head first into the scary is so much more life giving than just sitting there and wondering what would have happened if I had. So today, jump, take that leap of faith headfirst into that dream that you haven’t even dared to utter out loud yet.  Take a step, even if it is a small one because I can promise you it is worth it and you are worth it and one day you will look back and be so glad you did!