Its not my job to figure everything out

I think I may have mentioned this once or twice before before, but news flash, I like to know things. I like to know what is going on, and I like to be in the know. From a young age I can even remember always wanting to be in the adult conversations, wanting to know what the plan was… just wanting a little more info than everyone else. And ya’ll these days I don’t know a whole lot of anything. I am starting a new job that is all new to me, where I really don’t fully know what I am doing yet. I don’t know what the next month will hold, from where I am going to travel to where I am going to live, to what my work schedule is going to look like. And to be quite honest it is very overwhelming but I also have this strange peace that it is exactly where God wants me to be right now.

I have been thinking and even looking at making some major changes in my life over the past few years, and earlier this year I finally took the leap...knowing it would be hard, knowing it would bring a lot of challenges. I asked for it and I was even really excited for it all, and although I don’t know if the excitement is still as tangible as it was before I launched into this journey I have a peace that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. In the past few days God has been gently reminding me that it is not my job to try and figure everything out, it is not my job to work out all the details, to stress over where I am going to live, or where the money is supposed to come from. It is my job to find rest in him and trust that if he is leading me through this that he will provide for all of my needs. This seems to be a recurring theme in my life over the past few years. God bringing me through something super difficult and me trying to figure out a solution to everything and him gentle reminding me that it is not my job to strive to work everything out.

I don’t know about you but that totally takes the pressure off of me. The pressure to try and make that relationship work, the pressure to have every detail of my scheduled figured out, the pressure to not let anyone down, the pressure of how I am going to pay for everything. That doesn’t mean that I don’t worry, because let's be real…. It is really hard not to worry. But time and time again God reminds me that I am not in control, that he is the one my trust is in. That he is were my hope rests. Friend, I don’t know where you are today but find comfort in the fact that it is not your job to try and figure it all out, to fix it all, or to make it all work. Rest in the knowledge that there is a God who has already done that. It might not look or feel like what you think it will but I can look back over my life and see how God has shown up  and worked things out in ways that totally make no sense to me. Take a deep breath and find rest in the fact that you don’t have to figure it all out today!